Please fill out this paperwork.
Date of the last mammogram?
Personal Cancer history? No
Mom breast cancer? Yes
Aunt breast cancer? Yes
Same questions-every year-sometimes every 6 months. And this time, in the middle of a pandemic.
Here I sit-blue hospital mask. Waiting to hear my name.
Kelley? Dressing room 4. Put on your cape. She’ll come to get you in a minute.
Here I sit-blue hospital mask and floral cape. Waiting again.
So glad I wore my blue earrings today. They’re my favorite!
Seems silly, but somehow, they make me feel a little less nervous.
I’ve done this a million times. And I know it can be lifesaving. There is no other option.
I can’t help but think about the brave women I know who have fought breast cancer. Many won their fight, some did not.
And yet, at some point on each of their journeys, they sat where I’m sitting. Being proactive, preventative. But also wondering, what if there’s something there this time. The thought can’t be helped.
That’s why I sit here, waiting. Wearing my blue hospital mask, floral cape, and favorite blue earrings.
Don’t breathe. It is a 4-second test. Breathe. Repeat x 4.
Wait again. Possible ultrasound. Usually, what happens to me. This time, I mentally prepared for that one. Who am I kidding?
It is worth all the waiting and anxiety of this moment. Because it will either provide peace of mind or the need for a plan of action.
Kelley? Bring your things. Follow me.
Ultrasound. Press and click what seems like x 50…
Everything looks stable. See what your doctor says. Otherwise, see you next year.
Walking out into the fresh air, I want to shout to the skies.
Get your mammogram! Do not wait!