Not a cloud in the sky. Yet, a heavy haze held the morning. Unhelpful. Especially when my brain also feels foggy. If only I were still sleeping. However, sleep is not a likely solution. There is rarely a single solution anyway. Some days are just like this. My heart is grateful for family and friends. My head is unsure how to process the melancholy. Seems counterintuitive to wish for a cloud. But if a fluffy cloud means A lifted haze A bluer sky A spark of imagination Then I will keep searching. Looking out every time I pass a window.
I sat with The heaviness All-day-long My heart wrapped In a blanket of grief The day wrapped In weeping clouds
A peak of the sun Broke my stillness Only a glance Out the window Surely, I should not soak it in How could I? Amid so much suffering
That sweet sunshine Not to be ignored Determined to draw me out Shone a little brighter Bravely displaying Light and shadow Simultaneously
I couldn’t help Whispering Thank you Even as my heart Continued to cry
Today, I am sharing a poem from my recent collection, When the Glass Breaks. Once again, the day, the world, feels anything but simple. And I know there are no simple answers. But I am reminded of the following quote.
“Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.” Martin Luther King, Jr.
A heart-shaped cloud Usually prompts a smile But not that day- That day, the cloud was gray- A symbol of grief A reflection of the hurt Many suffer, often in silence-
The sky was silent, too Unlike recent days of rain, Thunder, and lightning- As if now holding Its breath while The grieving heart Cautiously passed by
Light remained- Not bright, but soft and warm- Like a lamp lit In the corner of a room Quietly lingering Offering comfort Holding space for healing
A rolling dark cloud Greeted the day Its growth visible Second by second Ominous, imparting a Sense of dread and fear On all who approached- I felt it, too A tightness in my chest A furrow on my brow But still, the day approached And there was no place to hide- A gentle tap tap on the window Shifted my thoughts-raindrops- As if to say, it will be ok Yes, I hold heaviness today But don’t be afraid – Sometimes, tears have to flow There’s no other way through At least, not today- It may seem darkness is growing But the sun holds tight behind me Waiting as the rain Washes away my hurt Preparing my heart to Receive and reflect the light- So, I wait for the sun Will you wait with me?
For more than a week The words felt stuck- Like tears caught In the back of my throat Unable to complete their journey From the heart to the eyes- Perhaps there were too many of them Perhaps they needed to learn To share space To slow down- Taking extra care to flow freely Only once able to provide A moment of hope In a world heavy with fear Only once able to speak the words I see you I love you
This morning, I participated in a writing circle facilitated by Ali Grimshaw. https://flashlightbatteries.blog/ It was just what my heart needed. 🩷
When the Glass Breaks is a collection of poems divided into four sections: Living, Breaking, Mending, and Reflecting. Today, I am sharing a poem from the second section, Breaking. Thanks for listening! ❤️
The entire day Looked like night A continuous moment of gray From the end of a sad day Stuck in a time warp Confusing the senses Of all who took the time To look out the window – A confusion so deep Once the light appeared It was almost unrecognizable – But lingering shadows were Unable to push it away- My squinty eyes smiled Soaking in the light Hoping even the memory Of this brief appearance Would continue to shine Throughout the night And into Tomorrow
Each tiny twig Like a cold hand Reaches toward the sky- Too many to count- Each held in place With its larger branch Securely attached to the trunk- The roots, always unseen Yet, their presence felt With every passing storm Their wisdom entrusted In this season when youth Fades with the falling leaves And lessons emerge From an intricate design- A skillfully drawn Pen and ink against A blue-pink watercolor sky- Teaching my outstretched hand To soak in the warmth of even The most short-lived Patch of Sunshine
Remembering my sweet Dad today. Miss him so much. ❤️