Layering itself within the everyday, grief flows between memory and emotion through eyes, ears, heart- Leaving me with new reasons to miss you.
Johnny Cash spinning on your granddaughter’s turntable. We listened to Johnny Cash on a long drive in my car.
Your grandson wearing one of your straw hats. I found a picture of you wearing said hat, smiling.
My sweet granddaughter and her blue sky eyes. You would have been so excited to meet her.
Your voice in my head, fading. How’s my little girl?
Grief flows between memory and emotion through eyes, ears, heart- Leaving me grateful, yet wishing you were still here.
Mom and I had a recent conversation about how we sometimes struggle to talk about the ones we miss. I get it. There’s a fear of causing tears, sadness, and increasing grief. But I’m finding that talking about my dad, remembering good times, brings peace. Yes, it may also bring tears, but tears have the power to restore. ❤️
If I were to write a thankful list, It would be a list of names. Names of those who, through the years, planted seeds in my heart.
My only fear is forgetting. Though forgetting your name would certainly not negate any seed you planted. You are so much more than a name.
You are shared smiles and tears. Strong hands, reaching, so arms can fiercely wrap around hurts in a comforting embrace. You are kind words, encouraging high-fives, and celebrating victories.
You are faces, memories of hope, present on the darkest of days. You are one soul seeing the beauty and purpose in another. And I am thankful to have sometimes been that other.
I am thankful for all the yous written on the list carried in my heart.